in between sizes

where do i even begin with my junk for today... completely killed one of my fingerprints with a battle between a large boulder & a wheel-barrel hyper-extended my hip years ago and dealing with a chiropractor's order & no exercise until further notice my favorite car sits dead in my driveway i've been pulling late night work … [Read more...]

there are days…

until i turned 30 i never hated a day of the year. no dates were avoided, overlooked or dismissed. i enjoyed them all. in addition, my empathy was on permanent hiatus. i lived in a perfect little bubble that allowed everyone, including myself to believe that my life was ideal. a healthy marriage of more than 10 years. heightened levels of self … [Read more...]

it’s been 18 years.

i have a new client. a real estate firm based in London. i was browsing some of their listings <<daydreaming>> while working on their website today... dreaming of the lovely bright green lush landscape. the crowds of well dressed professionals with their adorable accents & mad love of soccer! London. in 9th grade i went with … [Read more...]

31.

water-coloring. jack & abigail adventures. … [Read more...]

end with lies.

  i am hurt. my flesh is weak. my soul is yearning for truth. wisdom. emptiness seeking fulfillment. brokenness to be repaired. there's a desperate choke feeling... it's deeper than the automatic constriction of the throat. far more deep... it gnaws it's teeth into the soul. it breaks down the tissue of your being. the mind lands on … [Read more...]

adjusting my sails…

if we are living in His will, we are where we should be. ... so we are planted wholly & deeply in His will and not of our own. i want this. to live solely in His will. because my will is not a good idea. at all. it's been 3 months of living in NY. 9 months separated. years and years of single-parenting the sweetest kids God ever … [Read more...]

NY: country style

fresh picked tomatoes for dinner. thunderstorms full of lightening & tremendous buckets of rain dropping instantly. collecting blackberries for homemade tarts. biting deep into sun ripened cucumbers. wide open roads. line-dried vintage sheets. golden hair shimmering in the sun while determining what shape the clouds hold. playful fun & … [Read more...]

changes.

her legs have grown so long. she glows. her words dance at the tip of her tongue. full of stories & questions & commentary. his smile radiates with a small dimple carved out of his left cheek. kissable with each eye catch. he giggles & loves. plays frisbee & kicks a ball with such poignant intelligence & … [Read more...]